Excitement!

I am such a proud mom :) My baby girl has started to walk. Just a little..... We have to beat the record of 10 steps! She can rawrrrr like a lion (her own version) its more like mumbling of her lips. But HEY its alright! Also... Since i turn 16 in June, i have been looking for a car. A cheap one but if it has an engine in it, I'm good. Anyways, we posted on facebook for anyone who was selling a car and we found one!!! Its a possibility but not for sure. EXCITEMENT!

Being HAPPY

Ya know those weeks where all you wanna do is crawl in a hole? NOT THIS WEEK!!! This week i have  been pretty happy!!! Bella turned 9 months old on April 6th. She had her 9 month check up and they made me fill out this worksheet/test on her developmental skills (ie- talking, scooting, eye contact) Bella's doctor said that most babies score a 24-27. WELL, Bella scored a 42!!! The doctor was so proud of us! Happy happy day. She weighs 20lbs 3oz. And her brain is growing... gROWING... Growing!!

Driving... AHHH!!

Over my spring break, I had to take drivers ed. I passed the written part but the driving part i failed. I was merging onto the interstate at 50 mph and my lights turned off. I had to turn them back on (obviously) but they wouldn't turn on so i had to pull over. BUT instead of hitting the break, i hit the gas. And a semi was coming our way. My instructor had to use the break on HER side. She has never had to do that. Apparently when you almost run into a semi... you dont passs. Good.

Nervous

Every month the Lincoln Lutheran choir goes to a different church in town to sing at. Its my church this weekend. So ya know how i got kicked out of Lincoln Lutheran? Ya.... I am really nervous to see all of my old friends. And I am afraid to see the principal (the person who really doesn't like anyone who doesn't fit in "the mold" -me-) What if they think I'm not a good mom? Or what if my old best friend found someone else to talk to and hang out with. Life has changed. I'm just nervous.

Rude People

Ya know what? Im sick of people who say that ALL teenage moms are terrible going to be bad mothers and that we are stupid. Okay, i can see how you got the stupid, but a lot of us have learned from our mistakes. Especially the people older than me who SHOULD understand that everyone makes mistakes. But they are just as dumb for thinking all that. People have been saying rude things to my friends who are pregnant and the girls that have kids. They are saying stuff like "Congrats for getting pregnant at 16." "Your never going to be successful." Just Stop........

Random pictures

- Daddy and Bella reading about their hands feet and face - Bella standing up at daycare - sick sleeping baby - "Bella RAWRRING-

Cutest Picture

"Im Bella. Hear my RAWRRR!"

"Worn"

Guess what?!?! On February 15th, my mom just got us tickets to go see Tenth Avenue North! They are only the BEST contemporary Christian band ever :-) They are touring their new album called The Struggle. So my favorite song on that CD is called "Worn". Go to Youtube and look it up. Here are the lyrics.....


I’m Tired I’m worn
My heart is heavy
From the work it takes
To keep on breathing
I’ve made mistakes
I’ve let my hope fail
My soul feels crushed
By the weight of this world

And I know that you can give me rest
So I cry out with all that I have left

Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart
That’s frail and torn
I wanna know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that’s dead inside can be reborn
Cause I’m worn

I know I need to lift my eyes up
But I'm too weak
Life just won’t let up
And I know that you can give me rest
So I cry out with all that I have left

Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart
That’s frail and torn
I wanna know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that’s dead inside can be reborn
Cause I’m worn

My prayers are wearing thin
Yeah, I’m worn
Even before the day begins
Yeah, I’m worn
I’ve lost my will to fight
I’m worn
So, heaven come and flood my eyes

Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart
That’s frail and torn
I wanna know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that’s dead inside can be reborn
Cause all that’s dead inside will be reborn

Though I’m worn
Yeah I’m worn

A&H

Yay!!..... A couple weeks ago my brother and I applied for the LPS Arts and Humanities Focus Program for next year (my junior year). From my understanding, they have the main core classes (ie. English and Math) but what makes it special is that arts and humanities is tied into each class. Hence the name. It is suppose to be challenging but like a family atmosphere. Only 80 kids go there. And when i applied, 70 were already accepted. On Monday or Tuesday of this week, i found out that my brother and i were BOTH accepted!!! This is a God thing :) Now i just have to keep trusting Him to write the rest of my story!

Bananas....

This is Bella having her first banana! It doesn't look like a banana but it is in a little net feeder. I pretty much LOVE it :) Life is good!

I have a crazy crawler!

Bella is crawling maniac now!! She was just scooting but NOW she is crawling! Last night she bonked her head and her whole gum started bleedin. Poor baby:( She is fine now. We got cleaned up but idk if the blood will come out of all our clothes. At least my princess is still alive and healthy!

Im Tired

Im tired of school. I feel like I'm kind of stuck in it and I'm never going to get out. Its frustrating. Yesterday was a terrible day for this exact reason. I want to take Bella and leave town. Maybe a vacation, maybe forever.

But on a good note, i have A's and B's.

My goal is to beat the stereo type that people have of teen parents. According to the world we are automatically bad parents, stupid, and a disappointment. (Which in some cases, thats true) But I'm tired of this.

Look out world! Here I come!

Just Me :)

My name is Ellie. I was born in McCook Nebraska on June 9th, 1997. I moved to Lincoln right before I entered kindergarten. I went to a small private school from Kindergarten-5th grade than went on to Middle School and High School at another private school. (I don't feel like mentioning the schools names). I got pregnant my freshman year of high school. That was obviously a shock to the small sheltered school.... I was planning on giving my baby up for adoption and that was perfectly acceptable... So I started looking through parents but they didn't fit my criteria. I think that was Gods way of saying that i should keep her. (Maybe I'm crazy. Maybe I'm not. I don't care.) So long story short, the administration at this school didn't like the fact that i was keeping my baby, going against "The Book", and how it looked "bad" to have a single mother at that school. I was formally asked to leave. I am now at a public high school. BUT, the summer before my 10th grade year, on July 6th, I gave birth to the most beautiful human being this world will ever set their eyes on. She is now MY six month old daughter. Everything changed that day. While i was pregnant I knew the general idea of the responsibilities of being a parent but no one told me how it would feel or how it REALLY changes your life. No one told me that you would sacrifice everything for that one human being. Anyway! Enough of that depressing stuff.

That is pretty much my life in the smallest nutshell. :)